Jonas Salk said “The mind, in addition to medicine, has the powers to turn the immune system around.” Actually, this could be my quote as well. I got physically sick because of my addiction to functioning from my ego. My life force was cut off from nature’s attractive non-verbal intelligence and my circulatory system began to shut down. Now, I am flowing, healing myself with the help of herbs and finally, finally, my ego has stopped kicking and screaming for all the attention. I love myself fully for doing the necessary work for bringing me to this place of freedom and self healing.
In this meadow I imagined myself as “a fish out of water”, literally, and felt very uncomfortable in a field of grasses, spreading under big oak trees. Not only could I not breathe, but could not effectively move, or find food, or see, or use any of my natural senses. This area feels very foreign to me. I do not know if I am damaging it or mistreating it because I do not know it. I am longing for a friend/a guide to show me around. Mostly I am longing for water and my comfortable environment. I felt like I did when I was at the car repair shop yesterday and could only find a little clump of grass. My emotions were bursting from me in disarray and out of control. I felt alone and sad. I felt panicked for my life.
As a human being with respect to people, I am finding mutual support. I am finding those who do not judge me. Those who feel comfortable in their environment and can help me to assimilate myself and special place in it as well. In respect to nature, I am continuing to open a space for natural attractions and their nameless intelligence, strengthening my ability to communicate with it to the same end.
I thank this beautiful meadow, as I share it with the nature spirits present assisting me with my work. I thank it for its wisdom and glory and seasonal differentiations, reflecting on me those parts of myself. I thank it for it’s peace and perfect symmetry and am grateful that in this time of challenging peace in the world that I am choosing peace for myself through this meadow. I do very much thank it for remaining available in consciousness so that I may return to it there.
I thank the bugs, grasses, hawks, crows, rabbits and little people that are part of the meadow. I thank Father Sky and Mother Earth for joining together here in the meadow. I have a home like this with people; the meadow I share with people is their hearts.
I’ve discovered that I am connected to the nature spirits, that I am moving closer to the internal environment of natural systems and their intelligence with every step I take. I am grateful to have found friends who are trusting and non-judgemental to show me around in my new environment.
I enjoy sunny days. Hawks flying. Being filled with self-love instead of self-judgement.
I love becoming nature! I do it all the time, so that I can be more compassionate. I became my kitty, snuggly curled up on the chair, YUM!! I was the rock by the stream, old and wise, chilled by the water, warmed by the sun.